Happy New Year!! (take-2)

Okay, I've read my post and its pretty lame.. Ive lost the touch I guess...

Anyway, this year I'm trying these new things, bout sociology. Its a bit risky, buy hey! We live only once and better make out the best of it right? hehe :p

- Let go all the hatred towards other ( checked )

- Trying my best to let go and move on ( _____ )

- Trying my best to study hard ( _____ )

- Saving money for Greece trip ( _____ )

- Wake up early to catch the bus ( _____ )

- Cook myself lunch and bring it to hospital ( _____ )

And the list goes on... but WAIT!!!! only 1 thing checked! Omg what happen to me? lol.

Become so lazy like this, urgh I should be ashamed, but the truth it, I feel nothing hahahaha! lol again.

I guess I did changed a bit. ( or a lot? idk )

Well who cares! As long as I enjoy living ^__^

Happy New Year!!

Its the first day of the year, and here I am, alone in my desk, waiting for the Azan Subuh in front of my computer.

Been so long since I've updated my blog, dunno... dont feel like it.

But then Its the best way to kill time like this huh?

Anyway, my 2011 was 'GREAT', so many dramas, memories etc etc.

Moving in 2 house in a year, whats more drastic than that? Hahhaa! Too bad things didnt work out. Not gonna complaint or blaming other, we all have our perspective and opinion. i'll try my best to stay out of trouble :D

The good thing is, I've bought the Siberia Steel Series limited edition headphone! Yahooo!!! Thanks to the discount, the price drop from Rs 8k to Rs5.6k hehe. Well things on my wishlist must be obtained no mater what!!! :p

so many things to talk about but didnt know where to start.

this year we gonna have our elective posting. Idk what research we going to do, but I hope we can finished it early and the extra days... holiday!!!

So now, leave the 2011 bad memories and welcome the 2012 with bright smile and may a blessed and interesting year awaits us ^___^

Sometimes a little pull would work.

Darn its hurt when you not even trying.

Cold Birthday~

Its literally cold haha coz im having cold n cough n fever etc etc..

Well im 22 now, seems like nothing change. But Im getting old tho... *sigh

Planning on going shopping etc but this disease prevet me.. n here I am, updating my blog with my slow Reliance Broadband Internet... Overconfident to realiance over MTS or Tikona, now serve me right by having slow connection... *sigh

Wishlist:

-SteelSeries Siberia Neckband Limited Edition ( hohoho )

-small IceBox dkt Croma ( perhaps gonna by this next month )

-Lacoste Pure ( wangi giler hohoho )

-Dia

Tomorrow is the first day of our 4th year, lucky us the system is changed n we are now following Malaysian System of Education, thefore everything is gonna be reset from the beginning. ( time to make up the attendance!!!)

But sadly idk if i can attend tomorrow class due to this sickness n today hospital is closed, so kalo nak pg pun esok je :((

Been taking these cough syrup but it seems its not working! Wanna take extra dose but afraid of the side effect...

Currently madly in love with Selena Gomez song " Love you like a love Song " n the cove made by Sami ( a youtuber ). Repeating this 2 song over n over again! crazy i must say hoho ^_^

Gtg now~

Salam~

I wanna write "I miss you" on a rock and throw it at your face so you know how much it hurts to miss you. ;p

Soo many happen in such period of time. but first of all Alhamdulilah sgt sebab dpt cari rumah baru. 2BHK with lesser price then my old house, swig! ^_^

Now busy cleaning and buying lost of stuff to fill the empty space ( till i got tonsilitis :(( due to the pile of dust )

Going back to Malaysia tomorrow well actually the day after tomorrow since its Monday, but who cares :p

Last but not least, Minta maaf atas segala kesalahan dan kesilapan yg dilakukan baik secara sedar atau tidak sedar, almaklumlah manusia ni penuh ngan kesilapan, yg senang untuk kita adalah memaafkan sesama kita ^_^

Argh tgh serabut pala otak. Mana la nak cari rumah kosong ni >.<

Mudah2an dpt juga aku cari tempat untuk berhijrah.

Hijrah mencari ketenangan

Sama2 kita berjalan :D

Demi Ramadhan yg penuh dgn keberkatan, aku memohon maaf walaupun korang tak terima dan selitkan dgn nyekit2 dan perli2.

Silap lidah berbicara, mengikut kata hati penuh emosi, perkara lalu walau kelmarin, maaf didahului dari ke-egoan diri ini.

Nafsu berkata jangan berhenti, teruskan legasi benci membenci, tapi bukan itu kehendak Allah dan Nabi, tapi agar kita sentiasa saling maaf memaafi.

Biar apa jua aftermath benda2 yg aku tulis, kasar dan kesat, aku akui, aku akur, biar kalian menghukum dan menghakim, tapi agar bila aku bertemu Si Pemegang Jiwa, Dia tahu aku benar2 menyesali.

1 Ogos 1 Ramadhan ( di Malaysia )

Selamat Hari Lahir kepada ayahanda di sana, Moga tahun ini memberi makna yg lebih lagi2 start2 bulan puasa. Semoga panjang umur yg berkat, murah rezeki yg halal, diberi kesihatan yg berpanjangan untuk sama2 dimanfaatkan dijalanNya ^_^

Maaf segala salah silap, almaklum diri ini senang membuat kesilapan dan kesalahan :p

Rajin2 marah diorang Lia kat rumah tu, dgr2 diorang makin malas hahaha!

Maaf

Salam.

Malaysia start puasa dah, tp India ( Bangalore je ) puasa esok. So ikut je majlis agama sini.

So post2 sebelum ni sangat2lah contradict. So, atas kesempatan ni, sebagai insan yg lemah, saya memintak maaf atas keterlanjuran kata2, kegagalan mengawal nafsu, melampaui batas dalam berbicara. Maaf.

Mudah2an kita boleh melakukan Ibadah Puasa ni dengan lebih tenang. Ketenangan hati itu lebih bermakna dari segala. Percayalah.

Untuk siapa2 yg terasa akan post saya sebelum ini, maaf juga. Di fb or twitter. Maaf sekali lagi.

untukmu si dalang besar, segalanya akan ku tuntut akhirat nanti. Mark my word. Ko pg la berlindung belakang ukwah palsu ko tu.

Belum lepas MBBS dah jadi consultant. Hebat! *clap2

Suka la ko when everything falls apart? ko mmg plan sgt detail and i failed to calculate it. Congratulation.

No More Rough Palm.

Salam.

Tadi kuarkan duit nak pg bayar bil letrik and bil internet.

Otw pg Bangalore One ( tmpt bayar semua jenis bil ), lalu la bermacam2 kedai, semua tampal SALE! SALE! SALE! !

So tgk la ada flat 50%, ada up to 70%... jalan je la...

Then lalu depan Adidas... ternampak dia tulis flat 40% utk apparel and 30% for footwear... terfikir2 gak, selama aku jalan2 kat BEL Road ni, 2-3 kali je masuk Adidas sini, so sebab alasan tu, singgah jap! hohoho.

Fuyooo lawa2 baju + murah2, tp nak save sikit utk bulan ni, so tak jadi beli, tp tanya2 if ada glove utk gym, dia ckp ada! Yeay! Dah round semua kedai kat Bridget Road satu pun takde jual. rupa2nya kat Adidas Bel road ni gak aku jumpa lol.

Agak murah and design dia lawa, not so thick and quiet simple, so angkat la. ( kurang dah duit utk bayar bil )

Takpe2 kira2 duit still cukup. So sampai la kat Bangalore One. Beratur panjang ( ramai la pula org petang2 ni )

Sampai turn aku, bagi dua2 bil, dia sebut "THREE THOUSAND SEVEN". I was like what?!

cek2 duit ada 3k je, argh! then buat muka tebal ckp kat makcik tu, nak bayar bil letrik je, internet nanti, tak cukup duit. LOL! semua org tgk je... =.='

Pastu after bayar check balik bil internet aku, 1873rupee je pun. Eh pelik gak, bil letrik 1134 total tak lari 3k. pehal 3.7k? maybe ada cas2 tambahan kot internet aku ni sebab aku call kdg2 guna tepon rumah. So jalan balik jauh utk draw duit kat CityBank ( nearest ATM ). Argh kena cas 100rupee! mahal! around RM8! gila. takpe la silap draw duit situ >.<

Then sampai balik BloreOne, baris panjang balik... sampai turn, bagi bill ammount kena bayar Rs1873! Aik! pehal td total 3.7k?

Tym jalan balik umah, aku totalkan la Rs1873 + Rs1134 = Rs 3007... OMG! Dia sebut Three Thousand Seven tu maksudnya 3007 la, aku ingat dia maksudkan 3700! Aish! Silap pendengaran ni susah gak, buang masa, tenaga and duit LOL!

So pengajarannya, sengar baik2 org ckp apa eh, jgn mengelamun jauh2 haha! XD

Unfriend You

Best sgt lag ni!

Doing something for the sake of making excuses so you can obtain some sort of stand point that you have done something and not simply because you want to is a bit selfish isn't?

Thanks for giving me this insomnia everytime I think bout what have I said and those words left unsaid plus these new thought of what should I've said. Thanks.

I have a dream, and I picture many people inside it, but there's no me in yours huh? How pathetic am I ? Nvm I dont care anymore. ( I wish and try my best )

I share this video, one of my favorite I must say, Enjoy Turnin Table by Adele ^_^

Ramai giler senior jual moto, scooter... haizz.. mcm teringin gak nak beli... senang sikit gerak ke hospital, tak perlu tgu lama2 cari oto dalam hujan.. lol... tapi...

Aku ini beginilah, bukannya pemikir handalan, yg nampak sampai penghujung jalan. Apa berlaku hanya difikir sampai disitu, emosi ketika itu, pemikiran yg kaku.

tapi jangan kau ingat aku tidak mampu mentafsir, bait2 kata, semuanya. walau tidak sedalam mana, namun cecah cetusan minda.

Tapi tidaklah aku sanggup, lihat sebalik kelambu qalbu, pada itu sampai batasku, batas seorang manusia lemah.

kelmarin, datang satu utusan, membawa setitik racun berbisa, agar aku mula bingung, melihat dunia pada lensa kabur, agar aku semakin jauh, dari cahaya terang benderang, masuk dalam dunia hitam.

Tidak mengapa, begitulah ragam manusia lemah, aku juga sudah biasa, hidup dalam dunia fana,.

Bukan kawan, sekadar kenalan, itu mungkin boleh.

Weird

Td peralatan2 kat gym dia ubah sikit kedudukan. so one of that thing that i have to push ( i forgot what's the name ), was placed in front of the mirror wall. So while doing this thing, I can observe myself... ans what do you know... my right shoulder is not in a same alignment with my left. Right is slightly ( more then slightly actually ) forward and elevated >.<

Aish... pelik2... maybe the strength of the muscle on both side is not equal kot...

I hope after several month, this problem would be cured by itself ^_^

The Beginning of an End

I've been thinking so many things lately. Either bout the decision I've made, will make etc etc.

Maybe its because the First Internal Assessment in 2 weeks and I haven't started yet, or perhaps i've just realize I've choose the wrong person, or maybe these words left unsaid starting to takes its toll.

Idk know much bout life but one thing for sure, Its HARD.

So many choices offered to us, and yet we fail to see the good one. Often blinded by the whisper of the 'devil', by love, by wealth and so on.

Ive made mine and I know its a big mistake. But then I'll try to manage with it, mingle with it and eventually solve it, but some people just like to see others suffer and dwell in lots of problem, perhaps that make them feel more superior, happy and satisfy with the crowd they collect.

But you know, life is like a cycle, what you do to people will eventually come to you, if not, your children and that time I HOPE it will be more suffering then what you do to other people.

Takbur

Mudah2an hilang sifat ni dari diri aku.

Imam Ghazali memberi beberapa panduan untuk mengelakkan sikap takabbur yang ada dalam diri manusia, iaitu :

1. Apabila berjumpa kanak-kanak, anggaplah mereka lebih mulia daripada kita kerana kanak-kanak belum dibebani dosa.

2. Apabila berhadapan dengan orang tua pula, anggaplah mereka juga lebih mulia kerana mereka lebih lama beribadah daripada kita.

3. Apabila berjumpa orang alim, anggaplah dia lebih mulia kerana banyaknya ilmu di dadanya.

4. Apabila melihat orang jahil anggaplah mereka lebih mulia kerana mereka berbuat dosa kerana kejahilan sedangkn kita melakukan dosa dalam keadaan mengetahuinya.

5. Apabila berjumpa orang jahat, jangan anggap kita mulia. Tetapi katakan, mungkin orang jahat itu akan bertaubat pada masa tuanya, sedangkan kita belum tahu bagaimana akhirnya kehidupn kita.

6. Apabila bertemu orang kafir katakan, belum tentu dia akan kafir selama-lamanya.

Today I feel good ^_^

Tarbiah~

Suka sgt dgn petikan ini "Berkenaan Saidina Omar r.a. ini Abdullah bin Mas’ud r.a. berkata: “Keislaman Omar r.a. adalah pembukaan. Hijrahnya adalah kemenangan. Pemerintahannya adalah rahmat. Kami tidak pernah bersembahyang di hadapan Ka’bah sehinggalah Omar r.a. memeluk Islam. Apabila dia memeluk Islam, dia melawan Quraisy dan bersembahyang di hadapan ka’bah. Lalu kami pun bersembahyang bersama-sama dengannya.”~ diambil dari Tarbiah.

Kalau ada masa, silalah baca link yg saba bagi tu, bagus utk kita faham bahawa dakwah tidaklah mementingkan secara 100% theory yg dipelajar akan Islam tapi practical itulah yang memainkan peranan lebih besar. Ilmu tanpa amal ibarat pohon yg tidak berbuah.

Sama2 kita memperbaiki diri, ^_^

Salam.

Im very fond to this song now, Original was by Christina Perri ( love it also ) now covered by Sam Tsui, love his cover also, very talented man I tell you, dunno why Usher choose Justin Bieber LOL :P

p/s : This is first ever video I've embedded, yeah for me hehe ( just found the way to do it hahaha :P )

16 Mei

Aku tak pandai sgt nak mengarang.. maaf atas keringkasan ini.

Tapi kerana saya tahu, betapa besarnya maknya tarikh ini, bukan saja dilabel sebagai HARI GURU tetapi juga pada ketika inilah, lahirnya seorang ibu kepada yg bernama aku.

Simple, tapi dalam,

Girang, tapi beringat,

Lembut, tapi cekap,

Marah, tapi sayang,

Mana tidak kalau bukan dia yg bergelar Ibuku :D

Selamat Hari Jadi sekaligus Selamat hari Guru buat Ibuku dan juga Guruku :P

Semoga panjang umur yg berkat, murah rezeki yang halal, sihat sejahtera selalu, terlindung dari bencana dan malapetaka, dibekalkan lagi semangat utk mendidik adik2 kat umah tu ( rotan je hehe :p ), jgn mudah putus asa walau apa yg berlaku, sentiasa ingat bahawa Allah itu sentiasa melihat dan mendengar akan apa saja rintihan dah keluhan, setiap penat lelah itu, tetap akan dibalas oleh Allah berupa ganjaran Syurga, bukankah itu yg lebih baik ^_^

Maaf segala salah silap anakmu yg jarang sms ni, almaklum la ( tak nak guna alasan busy ) that's just not me to msg2 everyday, and dah dilatih utk jgn busy bersms, but you know that I'll always remember right? Anything I've done just for you not to worry about me, I've manage myself well, in any condition, happiness, sadness, hardship, etc etc.. Not that I dont want to share, but you have been there with me since our last struggle to get me where I am now, and that's a very big sacrifice already. Allah is the only one that can repay all that. Thanks mother.

Syukur to Allah for bestowed such wonderful and courageous mother like mine, struggle to make us siblings human, understand how this world works, prepare us thru happiness and sadness, and stay moving forward although the world has forsaken us. Alhamdulillah syukur ^_^

How can I?

I look hideous when I cry.. perhaps thats why I never want to cry.

6 more days and it will a very special day ^_^

Baru bangun dari tidur. Still penat. Tp Alhamdulilah caffein dlm Caremel Shakerato dah hilang kesannya membuatkan aku boleh tidur setelah 1hari stgh berjaga ^_^

Mlm nie dinner kat Element plak, seriously lama giler dah ta kpg element.. tp takkan amik coffee dah.. taubat hahaha!

Last msg, Tuhan masih sayangkan aku, cuma aku yg susah untuk bersyukur :(

The question was simple... "why delete my sincere question?" Im not trying to nyekit or anything, Im just asking kakak ISEP dah ckp diorang akan urus pasal MUET, so why now? If dont know the detail, the admin should answer "we dont know" or something like that. But what they do? Keep me in silence mode, like nothing ever questioned. If its not for student asking their question, then what's the purpose beside giving announcement on what MSU want us to do?

People say when u cry, it will help clear your emotion...

I guess that's why my feeling is mixed with so much emotion eventually make me depressed...

When will I receive the gift? I wonder if I'm so close to it, but then it just stop...

Almost but nothing...

This world can be so cruel sometimes... or was it most of the times?

Hari yg memenatkan...

Td posting medicine pasal abdomen...

Then balik jadual bas 4.30 tp sebab posting habis awal like 3.30 gtu, so rehat jap kat surau sambil tgu bas.

Then jam 4.15 tgk bas dah gerak... so tertinggal... tension gak ah...

Pecahkan duit utk naik oto...

Hujan lebat tetiba... semua oto mintak mahal nak mampos...

Then masa berlalu oto pun habis...

6.00 ptg.. masih tgu oto.. menesal tak amik je walaupun mahal...

Hujan reda sikit...

6.15 dpt la oto yg mintak mahal gak.. bayar je la...

Balik penat + pening + lapar + nausea rasa nak muntah...

7.20 dinner nak dimasak... aku menungu dgn sabar...

skrg 7.22.. salam.

New House ^_^

Syukur alhamdulillah, td dah habis urusan pindah rumah ke New BEL Road. Harap2 ini yg terbaik buat diri yg pemalas nie. Nak berazam takkan tinggal posting and kelas theory lagi. Nak berazam gak nak amik kes presentation so tym end posting exam nanti tak tergagap2. ( guys, gonna need ur help a lot to achieve this ^_^ )

Harap2 group posting kekal so sek2 serangga kekal gak ^_^

Emm... banyak sebenarnya nak citer, tp... i guess I have lost the bloggers touch.. lol (pernah ada ke?)

Skrg tak tinggal umah bru lagi, dgn tuhan diorang tampal kat dinding tu, tgu Manuel dulu ah, then kemas2 and try hilangkan all those things, baru rasa selesa utk didiami.

Kena kemas gak umah lama sikit2, nanti diorang bengang plak aku blah tak kemas...

Anyway, alhamdulilah td pakcik guard tak banyak songeh, bg masuk je lori tu... punggah brg ok je although diorang rosakkan almari aku... dah la panas terik td, nasib aku tak marah tempe2 angkat brg tu... tp almari tu... haizz.. biar ah.. dah nasib benda berat.. nak buat mcm mana.

Then pasal internet connection, aku bengang gak. Dia ckp bwk tepon umah and modem je ke rumah bru. Aku dgr instruction tu clear. tp bila nak pasang line tu, splitter plak takde.... OMG.. tgl kat umah lama... nak amik jauh.. dia plak takde stock.. splitter kat umah lama tu plak dah kena glue dkt besi2 tingkap ( glue yg diorang guna kat makmal KH tu, yg pakai wire segala tu ), aku explain2 kat diorang, dia ckp still kena bawak gak.. haizz... tak ckp siap2...

So ingat terpaksa tangguh ah, then dia bg no sorang nie, yg urus benda2 tu, aku pun call ah.

........................ no answer.. sentap...

Biar lah dulu...

Pastu malam p dinner ngan Ilham kat Element Steak House, nyum2 ^_^

The steak just superb! I like it same as I like Kobe Steak House, both have their speciality and the meat just amazingly delicious! teringat The Only Place Steak House yg tak sedap.. tak nak pg dah kalo leh >.<

Then otw balik, mamat yg aku call td tu, yg tak angkat tu, call aku, dia nak dtg umah bru... So gigih ah aku ajak ilham pg umah bru tu.. tgu punya tgu, dtg gak dia.. set up semua benda, pakai splitter bru ( kena bayar ), then my connection is online! Yeah!

Everything just went as I planned, although the time frame agak lari sikit, still selesai semua dgn aman ^_^

Skrg tgk blogging kat umah Ilham lol :p

Btw guys, wanna share this Doa, utk memudahkan segala urusan kita, Mak Cik Norli from Melaka bagi ( aku dgr first time, then bru ah dgr dri kwn2 lain lol, I guess we never saw what we dont know eh.. maybe lama dah Doa nie org baca, tp aku je yg tak amik perhatian >.< .... )

" Rabbi yassir wala tu a'ssir, rabbi athmi bil khair " maybe pelik kalo tulis dlm rumi, sila2lah cari arabnya supaya betul tajwidnya ek. erti plak... aku tak berapa tau.. overall dia nak Allah permudahkan urusan kita, kalo rajin sila la post kat comment or tag saya kat mana2 link eh, Ilmu yg di kongsi itu ibarat benih yg tumbuh menghasilkan banyak lagi benih etc ( gtu ek?, aku tak berapa sure, tp overall picture mcm tu ah :p )

Till next time, Salam :D

2nd Phase a.k.a 2nd year.

Alhamdulillah, setelah setahun stgh, berjaya juga aku menghabiskan 2nd phase aku dgn lulus final exam ( honour ) ^_^

sgt2 bersyukur sebab exam hari tu susah tul terutama patho and pharmaco, forensic susah gak and microb leh jawab ah (alhamdulilah ).

So my result is like this :

Patho = C+ : not expecting much, mmg susah bangat soalannya sih..

Pharmaco = B

Microb = B

Forensic = B

Emm... ok ok takde A, so what? hahaha! aku dah bersyukur giler dpt lulus semua subject nie :p

Ade ke patut dlm exam patho aku p kira2 duit kalo kena suppliment, lol sgt, mmg putus harapan nie XD

Tp nasib baik Tuhan masih sayangkan daku dan memberikan ku kelulusan ^_^

Terima kasih sgt kat semua org yg menyumbang dlm kelulusan daku ini, hazrul, elron, arip jo, semangat korang study tu sgt2 membantu utk aku push gak study hhaha, kalo sorang2 confirm aku dahulukan tido :p

Sek2 serangga yg banyak supply item2 utk study, jasamu dikenang :D

Kwn2 lain yg mendoakan kejayaan kami, Allah saja boleh membalas kalian.

So skrg nie move on to 3rd Phase aka 3rd year, and imma gonna turn on a new leaf coz im starting the new phase in my NEW HOUSE!!! Yeah!

Sambung lain kali ^_^

Salam.

P/S : sory for the broken english, GCEO aku pun B3 je tym SPM >.<

Sekian lama,..

erhm.. lama dah tak update..

ingat nak tutup dah blog nie, nak bukak blog baru yg org tak tau.. tp malas la plak, so im here again lol :p