1st week

Hectic! Miserable! Exausted! 

Paper 1 for both MEQ n SEQ are so darn hard! (Paper 2 were so-so, idk if it can compensate first paper)

MCQ seperti biasa, tembak menembak, kalau kena alhamdulillah, kalo x... (Pls kena!!!)

OSCE... Susah... Kalut, gelabah, blank, xtau nak ckp ape dpn doc, consult patient.. Sigh... Harap2 part interaction tu doc murah hati bagi markah :((

Next week thursday is the mother of all exams! Clinical exam which stand alone! Means kena lulus x kira berapa accumative markah dah before2 ni. 

Oh gosh. Harap2 dpt case yg leh buat n jawab, n harap2 doc berpada2 nak bash ngan soalan...

The night before final

Seriously idk how am i going to do tomorrow. Pasrah.

Will do my best. Think as hard as i could. But for now, just wanna sleep early. 

These 2 weeks are going to be a long one. 

#pray4rashid

Final MBBS!!!

Okay attendance is out and i'm eligible to enter the exam. (Yeayyy!!)

Now focusing for my final theory and clinical exam! But idk, my effort was like always, baca2 rilek2.... Not like some of my colleague which study 24/7 sampai nak berkampung kat libry tuh!

So idk, if im pass alhamdulillah. Kalo x pass, sambung 6 bulan.

Pray for me okay! :)

P/s: kalo x lepas maafkan aku menghampakan semua orang termasuk diri sendiri. Sekian.

Meeting with the Dean

Finally the dean arrived at the Bangalore campus. So we all have meeting eith him about our final year course.

Its so scary how he describe about the chance and outcome of this course.

Now several thing need to be passed :

1. Attendance above 80% for 4th and 5th year. (I dont know if mine lepas ke tak, next 2 week akan keluar list)

-if lepas can proceed for final exam

-kalo x lepas automatically sambung another 1 year with the juniors.

-pray!!! :(

2. Clinical exam.

Lepas bab attendance, now proceed with final exam. So basically clinical exam (long case & short caseX3) kena lepas. Kalo carry mark & theory exam distinction pun, tapi clinical failed, still kira fail. "Clinical Exam stand alone" although it contribute 20% of the overall mark.

3. Overall mark.

Pass clinical exam, now the accumulative score. 

-carry mark (continuous assessment 4th & 5th year-40%)

-OSCE : 10%

-Theory Exam: 30% (each 10% from MCQ, MEQ, SEQ)

-Clinical Exam: 20% (10% long case, 10% short case)

So... I just have to pass the clinical exam and score 50% for pass MBBS given that my attendance cukup. 

Sad thing about carry mark is, doctor kat hospital bagi 50% je average mark sbb diorang xnak student "high/gembira" ngan markah tinggi2... They expect us to work harder la. Well you can interpret it into bad or good views. 

Carry mark/Continuous Assessment:

-End Posting Exam

-LogBook

-Attitude

-CaseWriteup

-Case Presentation

-Seminars

Yeah even attitude yg per 40 pun doc suka bagi separuh je. CP or EOP lagi la. But the doc bagi markah mcm tu pun sbb niat diorang nak bagi student strive for better... Sigh idk...

Anyway thats the sum of pre clinical and clinical year of a MBBs course. :)

Sensitivity

I bid my congratulation to those who tried their best to de-sensitised the community from being protective towards their value and religion.

Recently video anjing you tube.

Dont get the wrong idea. It is not saving the life of those dog which is wrong, BUT the way she presented it and the theme of the video using all those background music (takbir raya correct me if im wrong) etc.

People keep telling that holding hands between couple that is not married is worst then this. YES IT IS! But that doesnt mean we need to allow this (video/gambar provokasi terhadap islam) to roam freely right?

Let say today we let it go, tomorrow the will come with more striking idea right? Coz it wont do harm to them.

If you people didnt realise, this is the process of de-sensitising. Start with small2 thing, then slowly increasing the magnitude of the provocation.

Kalo esok diorang letak gambar babi and the caption is "Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri", with these community yg dah "de-sensitised", they will feel NOTHING!

Dah nak rasa apa nye, bukannya haram dipegang pun babi tu, haram makan je, its better dari letak gambar org yg bukan mahram mingle with each other right?

Wake up people!

Then you will say they just trolling and all so they shouldnt get punished. SEJAK BILA ISLAM BOLEH DI-TROLL? SINCE MUSLIM SUKA BACA 9GAG? So they already x rasa apa2 bila org lain troll their religion? (Another successful desensitisation)  

Sedang dalam Al-Quran kata agama itu bukan untuk senda gurau, siapa kita untuk membenarkan agama di-senda gurau?

Please la, jgn sebab interest politik kita abaikan isu agama.

"Maafkan mereka, mereka tidak tahu" 

Hello??!! This is 21st centuries man! Internet access is everywhere! You can google about Islam everywhere, theres no question of "tak tahu". At least you know which should and should not been done right? Like a simple fact "Muslim cannot eat PIG". Simple right? So dimana persoalan "mereka tidak tahu"?

Im not a saint, but i do feel something when they insult my religion. Same as i feel when they insult any other religion(isu kepala lemu etc).

Whatever hujjah korang apa, but i will not support this kind of action. 

"Another wrong(bukan muhrim bergaul benas) DO NOT justified another wrong(insult towards religion).

(A photo i screen captured from facebook).

Egypt

My brother and sisters in Egypt, be patient, Allah is with you.

Muslim Brotherhood, you showed to the other Islamic State that Democracy from the West is only lies and sentiment to leash the Islamic State under their rule and greed.

People of Egypt, you showed that 'tarbiyah' may already begin but longer period taken for it to settled in your heart.

People of Malaysia, the Hour is near, stop arguing about small matter and sentiment by the 'thagut'.

Dear self, The Hour is near. Verily God word and promise is The Truth. Arise from your sleep.

Kenapa Perlu Benci?

Kita ni, macam mana pun berbeza pendapat, apa yang kita pegang sama, matlamat kita sama, nak tak nak, ustaziatul alam juga tujuan kita, jadi kena perlu maki memaki? Kebencian yg teramat yang diukir dalam kata2, bila ditegur melatah x sudah, bagai tiada sudah ukhuwwah, atau memang tidak pernah ada?

Sema orang buat silap, tapi how we redeem the mistake that matter. tanpa mendengar semua pihak, terus hentam mcm esok kiamat. itukah jalan kita?

Pernah ke duduk sekali, bincang berjam2, dengan hati terbuka, tanpa persepsi, tanpa perasaan benci, tanpa rasa kebanggan diri?

Kalau belum, sekadar membaca dari media massa, bagaimana mungkin kita sanggup memaki hamun, sedangkan yg kita maki itu, dalam jiwanya ada Kalimah yang dua? belakangnya ada Wahyu dan sunnah? bagaimana mungkin?

Berhenti sejenak. fikir. politik berlalu pergi, tapi yg sentiasa memerhati, kita jangan sesekali tolak ketepi.

Mungkin bukan disini, tapi pasti disana nanti.

Menyesal xkan dapat menebus diri.

WE SURVIVED THE HIMALAYA!!! ( Day 3 )

x larat nak tulis dah, ingatkan boleh habis sampai hari ke 10 malam ni, tapi x sangka suka sgt menulis sampai xde energy dah tangan ni nak menaip hahaha. or maybe sebab lama sangat dah x menulis.

akan di edit post sebenar esok. tidur dahulu ye~ Salam.

WE SURVIVED THE HIMALAYA!!! ( Day 2 )

Aaaaaannnnnndddddd... here we are Manali!!!! hehe :D

After 14Hr journey, sampai gak kat Manali. Turun2 bas... SEJUKK!!!!! every breath ada asap okay!! nasib  ada bawak jeket. Tp x tebal :(

Check in kat hotel, yang lantai dia macam pijak ais. Elron terus kuar kat tepi2 garden tu amik gambar bunga2. Aku pula, menunggu water heater to completely heat the water for my precious bath :D

Jom enjoy gambar2 elron :

Hehe, some of the pic la eh, gambar2 tu HD, so lama giler nak upload. Ni gambar before kuar hotel, off to go menjelajah Manali!!!! hehe :D

Then singgah National Park otw ke Old Manali. the park :

The last pic, like it very much. Some sort of "Path of enlightenment" caption. With the bird accidentally captured. Majestic i must say ^___^

After walking a while, old Manali in on sight...

Then explore old Manali, there's this one temple... Manu Temple:

Okay. Manu temple ni, kena buat utk Manu (you dont say? #9Gag). Mengikut kepercayaan Hindu, Manu ni adalah bahtera (ala2 bahtera nabi Nuh) yang membawa benih kehidupan (Seed of Life) dan di tarik oleh Lord Vishnu tym berlaku malapetaka.

Ada persamaan x dgn cerita Nabi Nuh? Almost kan? What if seed of life here mention to all those animal and people that carried in the Arc to start a new life after the flood??

What if, its a different version of story narrated by different people? What if the one narrated this story about Manu is those unbeliever or once a believer? then he decided to change the story by himself?

And the last question is, What if its a different story all together? Who know~ Only The One that knows everything know.

Then naik bukit Old Shimla tu, terjumpa 1 rumah, tiangnya agak pelik..

See??? batu2an yang disusun sebagai tiang... Kalau 1 batu hilang? Agak2 runtuh x rumah? Who know~

Islam ni, boleh di ibaratkan mcm tiang tu juga. Ajaran2 islam ni, xleh amik setengah, and abaikan setengah. Nanti tiang2 islam tu roboh. We dont want that tight? So basic tu paling penting. nak mendalami ilmu2 yg high2 mcm ilmu fekah tu, x perlu jika yang basic2 pun x lepas lagi. Tp jangan terus xnak amik tau, okay? :D

Sisa2 masa di Manali kami habiskan jalan2 di New Manali. Teman Christ jalan2 malam2 ( nasib baik aku bawak torch light ). Suhu kat lua? Almost beku okay~ hahaha!

Tido dulu sebelum continue perjalanan esok ke Losar ( 9 hour drive ). tu pun kalo x singgah2 amik gambar which we will hehe :D

WE SURVIVED THE HIMALAYA!!! ( Day 1 )

Off to the airport, using SpiceJet. Penerbangan dalam 2jam setengah. sampai di Delhi awal pagi. ( Hello Delhi!!!! ^_____^ )

Not as expected, the airport x lawa, this Delhi is the 'ibu negara' of India. KLIA is better. Proud to be Malaysian :D

Breakfast kat CofeeDay Delhi, then gerak ke Metro.

(me and elron towards train station)

Just O.M.G... people are like ant!!! so many!!!

Tym nak pg Khan Market, train tu sangat sesak and org himpit aku sampai kaki x jejak lantai... Just O.M.G....

Then tym nak kuar train tu, stuck dalam train!!!! nampak elron n christ kuar train then BAM!!! pintu tertutup!!! OMG!!! aku tertinggal!!! hahhahaha!!!

Maybe sebab sangat 'berbudi - bahasa' or 'lemah-lembut' sampai x sanggup tolak orang kat depan tu kuat2... ( dah la pakcik tua kat dpn tu halang2 pintu )

So sampai je next station, bukak je pintu, terus hentam keluar, x kisah ko orang tua, pakcik2 lemah, hentam je! hahahaha! so i manage to keluar train and then amik train lain pegi Khan Market Station where elron and christ is waiting for me. heh XD

Then jalan2 kat Khan Market tu, ramai orang France~ singgah kedai pastry french nyer, makan kuih2 sikit, not bad ah :D

After tu kena naik bas ke manali ( 14 jam perjalanan okayyy!!! )

Manali tu satu daerah kat Himachal Pradesh ( HP ). HP ni salah satu negeri India. Delhi is another state. Thats why amik masa berjam2 nak ke sana. :/

Sampai2 kat stesen bas, ada sepasang kembar seiras!!!

Rupa sama, jenama baju n kasut sama. Even beg diorang pun jenama sama!!! hahahhaa!!! They're from Israel. But they're nice people and polite :D

Naik bas for 14 Hr is not easy okayy~ sampai kebas2 punggung ni. kena ubah2 position, kalo x kena sore la bontot ni hahahahhaa!!!

WE SURVIVED THE HIMALAYA!!! ( The Making )

Well actually, the plan is to go to the beach, Lakshwadeep.

But since Christopher does not like beach, we have to change the plan to hiking the mountain of Himalaya hehe :D

The crew : Me, Christopher and Elron

Planning 1 month ahead, we use the Lonely Planet, India book as the guide. It's extremely helpful for travelers.

After finished planning all those things, booked the airplane ticket, now is the packing!!!!

Buying the Wildcraft Tracking Bag for the starter, cost me like Rs 3.5k. Im depending on its quality for this trip.

That night, sempat lagi skype ngan Hazrul and Hilmi, sambil2 packing. I didnt sleep coz the taxi is coming on 4.30AM and its already 3.30AM when im finished packing and skype-ing. if I sleep, there's chances that i might not wake up ( lol )...

Alhamdulillah

Im back here, rasanya google chrome aku rosak kot, xleh access blog. ada ip address conflict katanya~

Then bukak2 safari, masih boleh, walau agak lembab, lantaklah! yg penting boleh menulis lagi ^__^

Banyak nak tulis kebelakangan ni, puisi demi puisi terukir dalam minda kecil ini, tapi x terluah.

But before that, kena update pasal trip Himachal Pradesh kami hari tu. Asyik terngiang2 kat pala otak ni, sebab ada orang tengah menunggu cerita itu, and i know how panful waiting can be hehe XD

So i shall start with the next post ^___^

WE SURVIVED THE HIMALAYA!!!

10 DAYS trip to Spiti Valley and Kinnaur Valley in Himachal Pradesh.

Harsh weather, cold as ice ( literally ). At night, the temperature is negative!

Will update when I got the pictures from Aaron n Christ ( the expedition crew ^_^ )

Teasers :

This is Chandratal Lake. Its 4300m + above sea lvl. Almost same like Mount Kinabalu. So practically ive already climb the Kinabalu :p

Pic taken with iPod 4th Gen. The pic not that clear due to the insufficiency of MP of the camera. I do need a DSLR :p ( but hey, I manage to capture a mirror image huh? :p )

1st Week of Otho

Posting ortho. Sangat susah.

1st day x pg sebab badan sakit2 after main wall climbing hari ahad tu. Sayangnya xde gambar :(
X sangka aku main sport2 mcm tu, mcm x caya gak aku dah semakin berani mencabar ketinggian :D

2nd day, wasnt bad at all. Dr.Saravanan did asked why I didnt go yesterday. But the OPD session with him was great. He's a good teacher.

3rd day, Have to take case. 4 of us taking one case. A bit confusing and hard one to approach. Used the whole day for it. And the translator didnt come. Thanks God he can understand english a bit. Evening rounds, I've got scolded by the HOD coz i cant answer the question + many2 little thing. A bad day.

4th day, the case presentation. after complete taking the CTEV case, we divided among our self and each present small2 headings. So i got to present the History of the patient.

Bla...bla..bla.. BAMMM!! He ask me to stop. Scold... scold.... scold... something about the history being irrelevant for the CTEV case. and then he say "I'll give you 0 for this". I was like OMG?! the case continued but other teammates.

After finished it, he refuse to give me marks and I have to do it again with some other teams.

Its sad that he didnt understand that we ALL took the history. It could be someone else presenting the history. then Y am i the only one got 0??? Devastated... other people presenting the examination part got marks. but he didnt know I also did the examination of the patient! Darn...

Speachless, I just sat there quietly as they are given marks and happy for it. Bla.. bla.. bla... Senang le ckp kesian2 segala, if they knew how I've tried. Moral of the story : Dont try too hard, as life will fail you eventually. #BadAdvice

5th day, lazy day. Malas nak g kelas, tp paksa diri gak pg, paksa senyum, paksa ckp walau rasa menyampah giler nak establish communication. #lol

Then beli hp 2nd hand dari Jr. got almost 60% of original price. Okay la for the meanwhile. iPhone kua bln 10 ni hohoho :D

That night have some meeting. Mood still not okay but kena gak pg. Lapar. Penat. Pening. Esok ada lec ngan HOD, mmg kena baca sebelum masuk kelas kalo xnak kena halau. Clock ticking. 1.30pg, x habis lg. Im dead...

6th day which is today! A bit happy. HoD mood baik hari ni. Org bagi soalan bombastik, jawapan x tentu hala, dia still x marah. Dia senyum and ajar. SUKA! I've learned a lot in a class like this. :D
Kelas half day, thank God! ( although should have been holiday )




p/s: Currently waiting for a reply from a dear person. Wae U stay quiet? Just say its going to be fine is enough. :(

anyway, rasa nak window shopping, perhaps I'm going out shortly

Aku sedih dan gembira.

Sedihnya aku kerana terlepas subuh berjemaah bersama ikhwah tarbiah.

Gembira kerana exam peads x dimarah2.

Gembiranya aku kerana lunch bersama teman lama,

Sedih kerana ada yg sudah tidak bersama.

Sedihnya aku kerana masa tidak mengizinkan untuk menghabiskan 'routine' triceps,

Gembira aku kerana dapat Jemaah Maghrib di surau.

Gembiranya aku kerana ramai para ikhwah yg turut serta solat berjemaah,

Sedihnya aku kerana masih ada yg belum sampai tarbiahnya meskipun telah aku bawa bersama.

Oleh itu untuk engkau dah aku,

Aku rangkapkan satu sajak,

Walau tidak puitis bak kata2 ahli sastera,

Hanya berharap dapat meniup jiwa2 yg disentuh tarbiah.

" Bila datang seruan Ilahi,

Sanggupkah kita pergi berbicara denganNya,

Atau masih leka dengan dunia.

Mampukah dunia memasukkan kita kedalam Syurga?

Mampukah dunia mengeluarkan kita dari Neraka?

Dunia penuh dengan teman ketawa,

Dunia penuh dengan gelora hawa,

Dunia penuh dengan liku dosa.

Dimana tarbiah kita?

Mungkin aku juga seorang pendosa,

Mungkin aku juga pernah menjadi mereka,

Tapi jangan lupa Tuhan itu Maha Pemurah,

Selagi mana adanya masa,

Selagi mana adanya upaya,

Aku tahu aku masih ada Dia,

Menerima taubatku, ibadahku, pengorbananku.

Tarbiah kita ini,

Jangan sampai tinggal bicara,

Kita zahirkan,

Kita nyatakan,

Biar mereka diluar sana,

Menjadi saksi,

Yang kita sedang berusaha,

Kepada dia Yang Maha Kuasa. "

Aku suka dengar lagu sedih tym sedih, jadi lagi sedih hendaknya...

Anyway, mlm ni nak bertolak pg Manipal. Mudah2an selamat pergi dan selamat balik dan jumpa ketenangan disana ^_^

Special Day for a Special Person

Hari guru,
Juga hari jadi ibuku,
Dia yg berada disisiku,
Dari aku lahir hingga perjalanku berbatu2.
Sentiasa ada disitu menunggu,
Aku kembali dari perantauanku.

Dia yg mengajar erti hidup,
Dari bait kata,
Juga pengalaman bersama,
Membina satu insan, Aku.

Rasul yg tercinta,
Dengan sabdanya tentang ibu,
Cukup mengambarkan tingginya darjat,
Atas para panggilan duniawi,
Bukan hanya tinggal nama,
Tapi juga dibawa ke Syurga.

Walau jarang kita bicara,
Walau jarang bersua muka,
Walau jauh merentas dunia,
Walau dipisah jurang masa,
Aku masih seperti dulu,
Tidak akan ubah, perasaanku,
Aku sayang akan Ibuku.

Selamat Hari Jadi.

p/s :
Maaf ketandusan idea,
kata tidak lagi indah,
walaupun mungkin tidak pernah,
tapi tetap mencuba sedaya upaya.

Hambar sikit la hahaha. Lama x buat, almaklumlah hohoho :D

Mendoakan agar mama terus mencuba untuk mendapatkan kasih sayang Ilahi. Ingat setinggi mana pun kasih sayang manusia kepada manusia yg lain, Maha Pencipta itu lebih menyayangi kita sesuai dengan sifatNya yg Agung.

Tgk gambar2 kebun2, bunga2, tu, lawa ^_^

Dan ingatlah pada sekalian alam itu( sekecil2 biji benih ) terdapat tanda2 kekuasaan Ilahi untuk mereka2 yg berfikir. Salam sayang dari Bangalore. 

Selamat Hari Ibu

Well, lama dah x update blog, and it seems blogspot have a new layout, a bit confusing for a start :(

Anyway, Selamat Hari Ibu kepada semua ibu2, terutama my Beloved Mother which I cant contact personally due to insufficient of credit :(

Just got back from camping, and its Sunday... So no store selling topup are open. Too bad...

Thanks for everything thats because of her motivation and dua', that I manage to reach here and stays here ^_^

I love you mom :D

:(

Just read wall post form the Wife of the Consulate General to one of my friend. When we meet them at the restaurant, they offer to stay another day in Chennai, n staying in their house, but I vote for going home that night, my head itch like crazy, headache etc2, that's y I wanna go home ASAP.

But just know she already prepare ingredient for nasi Lemak, n already prepare Kuih Seri Muka for us. So sad...

Didnt really know... So sorry...

Chennai

Bru balik dari Chennai. it was a good trip, goes there with Aaron, Tika, Topak n Nopa.

But Chennai is freaking hot yawww~

Restoran Pelita is so-so... maybe x kena ngan taste aku kot. But I do like the Malaysian White Coffee. And the Teh tarik remind me of Msia :D

The Marina beach was hambar... Tho the Consulate General suggest us to go there =.='

Oh yea, rezeki terjumpa Consulate General of Malaysia kat Restoran Pelita, dia belanja yaww~ Ty ty ty ty ty ty :P

Sayang x mintak kari kepala ikan yg mahal lol :p

But the 7hr Journey for the food somewhat I think not worth it. So maybe I will not go again =.='